sleeping child

        It's been a month since i last updated my space, how time flies!

        Yesterday i received the certificate of probationership pass from the partner, which meaned that i have been working for Deloitte for 3 months. As a marker of my career life, it should be written down here.

        Even though life is full of OT here, i still find it exciting and attracted. As a new comer in this field, i faced mass of challenges and difficulties. I was weak in word and excel, not careful enough for the jobs, bad in memorying, not sensitive to numbers, etx (great that my boss would never know my space). I was challenged a lot by seniors or consultans or A2 even A1, however, most of them just hoped to help me and they did tought me a lot and gave me a lot of chances to learn, i appreciated that very much. Firstly i've got to thanks my dear A1 colleagues. Even though they would not read the text, i would like to flatter them for they gave me the force to walk on. Thank god that we were sitting together and anymoment i had questions i could just consulted them. With the help of those guys i improved my word and excel skill rapidly and got pleasure of life. Almost everyone who i have worked with are nice, Aaron, my manager, gave me advices on how to be professional and successful in office. And German, though sometimes hard on me, did show me how to perform well and look professional, which was and will be very helpful in my future development.And many Seniors and A2s and consultants, Wing, David, Coco, Flora......could not thank them enoug

        I'm glad that i found my flaw, as well as merit, which could push me forward all the time. Honestly speaking, i'm still too naive. David told me before, when i thougth i was not. However, after something, i found he's right. I'm not mature enough to deal with some kind of people, i still want to stick to my colors. I am reluctant to hide my averseness to her, i don't even want to talk to her, which is impossible since we're in the same department. I guess my colleagues had smelled that, which to me was not a good thing at all. I concerned this would ruined my future in this company to some extend, but i would like to keep my persistence. This is my character, i could not and would not hide it. If someday i got punished for this reason, i would not regrette. What i should worry about is how to improve myself  and exceed everyone's expectation.

       As i mention before, i come her to learn. Forget other potty things, i will step forward to the future i keen on.

            These days i was busy with dinners.

           The day before yesterday was the birthday of a best friend, he came from SZ to GZ to celebrate his very important day with us. I went to the party in a restaurant  just beside the campus. Inconsciently i walked into the campus. It's Canton Fair so lots of students were just taking there part-time jobs outside, as i did before. It's quiet. I could tell everything of it was just almost the same, except that the one, Eric, walking on the campus path, was never the student againe. I did not really miss it that much, i knew i could fit in my new life pretty well. However, everytime i walk in the campus, a feeling of pathos came to my heart, withou a reason. Sometimes i asked myself, isn't this what you pursued before? isn't this what you need? isn't this the life you're so long for? The answers were yes. Then where my suspiration from? Was i only groaning for the past days, for the golden days which i would never possess again?

              I that night talked a lot with my fellow classmates whom i had not met for almost 4 months till i could not pronounce. We had only very exiguous changes when we talke we found this. It's been the same.  The way we talked, the posture, the facial expression, everything reminds me of the 4 years  with them. It could be hurted. Whatever unhappy might ever happend between us was just dismissed without a hesitation, while whatever affectionate was just vanished as well. The power of time and space was absolutely beyond our reach.

               Latter was the K time. Even though I was almost not able to speak as the raucous voice, I sang several ones. With those songs i weathe through the 4 year. There were stories would never be knewn by others. They are songs of my past. I nearly lost my voice that night but with content.

              Today is jo's birthday, we celebrated with her again. Though can never get back to GS as a staff, i cherish every single minute with the guys in Gs.

              Looking back at the past could be a very very embarrassed experience, especially with the right song.

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陈奕迅-不如不见(粤)

头沾湿无可避免
伦敦总依恋雨点
乘早机忍耐着呵欠
完全为见你一面
寻得到尘封小店
回不到相恋那天
灵气大概早被污染
谁为了生活不变
越渴望见面然后发现
中间隔着那十年
我想见的笑脸只有怀念
不懂怎去再聊天
像我在往日还未抽烟
不知你怎么变迁
似等了一百年忽已明白
即使再见面
成熟地表演
不如不见